mama's boy...

I change my mind... bluecactus... I'll retract back what i said on not missing home country... I'm at this moment, 2.30 AM... desperately missing Indonesia, staying at home, and being taken care by mom when I'm ill, having a miserable cold and on constant nausea......:-) mama's boy, I am...

I'm wondering why we men, who under normal circumstances are stronger physically than women, but any sign of illness i.e.. cold, flu, fever, we're so much more crybabies than women in the same situation? I admit... when we have a cold... we need some lovin'.. :-)

women, on the other hand... just do the normal thing and move like nothing's happened... My mom would just have a lie in, for an hour/two, and get back to business....dad.. like me... we'll be rolling in bed, asking everything to come to bed, be it breakfast, tv, medicine, whatever...if the bathroom can move next to the bed, we'd do that too...

well.. now.. that doesn't make me feel any better, does it? ah.... I think, the bottom line is... I miss having someone take care of me.. :-) see... writing above doesn't have to always correspond to the conclusion... miserable sick cows who cannot get to sleep at 2.30 AM don't usually care about little details..

Lunch...with benefits...

You know how everyday you always try and strive to find something good to celebrate about everyday....
well... doesn't matter how you get it or how it happens, or how it will turn out.... had a very nice lunch with a very pretty young lady today...

it's a terrible thing, they're always better to talk to... it's somehow a bonus if they look pretty then no matter how less deficient they are in the art of conversation, they always seem to turn out better judged than someone more or less, say, conventionally built.
this one... is it the whole package? I never know.. it's not for me to judge, but then... so far, this one is interesting in a pretty lady kind of way..

will this conversation get out of topic? I guess it will... we will run out of subjects will sooner or later... no matter how cute her pout is... and oh man, such a cute pout... :-> ....

Tanktops...

Singapore, is a land of tanktops..

in fact, I think it's more common than t-shirts. Guys wear it, kids wear it, construction workers wear it, old german ladies wear it... of course, girls wear them most of the time... at the office, at home, weddings, cleaning, partying, sleeping, waking, swimming...whatever.....

you know.... I think women knows the power they hold upon us with their tops.... it's not that its too humid to be wearing shirts... its something else....:

• 1. it gives them the exclusive rights to call us perverts... I mean.... no guy, would pass off the chance to see what's hidden underneath, and now...women claim its our perverted minds that we are looking at them.... and somehow they're not responsible for the fact that by wearing tops they're trigerring our male's primal switch
• by wearing tops, they're deviously distracting male attention away from conversation and steering men into humble submission..... example.... have you tried having a conversation with a cute chick on a low cut top? aha... yes... can you concentrate on the conversation or on the subject? forget that, can you concentrate on the face???.... If you can.... well... either you're a woman, or.... well... you're a very well adjusted guy... :-)

really though, i'm agonising over the fact that I remember very little of the conversation, and missing points of the conversation on the merit of a low cut tank top, which had me trying my best to divert my eyes, and failing spectacularly... which she may, or may not notice... Is Kane Perverted then? If she didn't wear such a dress, would I have sneaked a peek? I probably wouldn't....... so, basically speaking, this is a premeditated murder, with the man being the setup for "temporary insanity"

maybe I should be wearing tanktops... maybe then someone would sneak a peek at my melon blossoms.......and let them get distracted..... "sigh" ....

Hiromi!!!!!! Mosaic Jazz Fest

went to see the Mosaic Jazz Fest. and watch this Japanese pianist firecracker called Hiromi...actually... it should be Hiromi!!!!!!!

No word in english can describe it, "Edan!!" she just never seems to stop... sending shivers up and down the spine.

Currently listening to one of her "autographed" cd's bought right after the show. It's still sending shivers as I'm writing this... Run/crawl, whatever, buy her cd's if you're into jazz...

By Request

All Right!!!!

my internet connection is NOW up to speed... been having so much time shopping... :-) hey, it's singapore dammit... I have the absolute right to shop and exercise the index and middle finger (to tip the credit card) to buy so-called bargains (which, incidentally, will be sold at a lower price next door) , and sampling foods left and right..... oyster mee suah... now..... if only you don't have to stand up to eat....

what have I bought, well.... speakerstandamplifiersubwoofershortspantspoloshirtsshoesandmoreshoeslotsabooksexerciseballtoysdvdplayerlightetc.....
see... its not to read, but to "understand" and sympathise...

the tank tops... have I told you of them? it's the darndest thing....in my next posting... :-) suffice to say.. tank tops aremore common than buses... and it's always an enlightment in the morning bus to the office, where normally you no longer have a place to sit, and the only available place to stand, coincidentally, is in front of somebody wearing tank tops....unashamedly juvenile, i am....

Cold... Hard... Place

I just watched an episode of the "apprentice".. This is my 2nd one since last week.. That's right... the couch potato thing is my "new" thing nowadays...
Anyway, I'm genuinely pissed.. by the women... they are really backstabbing each other at every point of the game.. and displaying a total disregard for each other like I've never seen... they're losing every game, that's true... but, really... in this show, I'm amazed by all these so-called Rhodes scholars/ Wharton/ ivy leaguers..., by the way they don't support one another. Their arrogant, selfish, one upmanshipman of one another, and conveniently blaming other people for their losses...
I don't blame one, or the other. I don't know what i would've done if I were in that situation. However... it's scary to think that all of those people could have been, and probably is, sitting just next to you, a time bomb waiting to detonate.... probably, you, yourself, are like that too......yikes.... are we that primal? in the process of being a top dog, do we have to kill other dogs...
perhaps the immortal word is.... Can't we all get along?....

Getting internet connection up to speed

Ladies/gentlemen..

I'm now connected and online, and whatever have you. and I may consider this my new best friend... haha... so... new update...

my apartement is now a spiffy kind, comes fully furnished with leather couches, two TV's all kitchenette facilities, and located near the river, hence the name, riverside... wake up in the morning and you can sorta feel like living in venice... ha.... kidding.... but it's definitely not ciliwung either... next door is a bakery, where if you're feeling a little wealthy, you can just hop over and have whatever baguette/pesto ciabatta/garlic bread/sourdough etc. with your egg sandwich.... all in all... much better than my actual digs back home...

I miss my car though..... the zipping around, SITTING..... hah..... the carrying around of groceries.... hiks........and now having to contend with rain, wet, jammed bicycle chains, shopping bags that break just precisely at the moment where you have to cross the road.... and i mean, precise.....

bluecactus.... if I were to be asked the same question, do i miss Indonesia? Now? hm... i would say no.... and you shouldn't too.... not even for a million henky tandayu's.....

Positive Thoughts of the Day (Monday)

Hello...

As per my new resolutions since my Birthday is one positive thoughts a day... so, here it is....

Went to the optic, because my old lenses felt blurry... thought I might added even more minuses to the accumulated minuses due to lack of sleep, 13 hour day on the computer, and endless friendster browsing... Wonder of Wonder.... My Lens minuses are decreasing.... !!! the cylindricals are getting bigger, however, it's a Yin/Yang thing apparently.. But anyway, I'm taking what I've got.. blessing.... hah...... Really, it's one good birthday present... just goes to show you, getting old doesn't always mean getting worse, nice things can still happen......

Next step, how to wear glasses and still look as cool as the Morpheus.... :-)

Going to Singapore....

Guys... I'll be going to Singapore for a 2006... evidently the company thought that office activities ran so well... they don't need me for at least 1 year, so they kinda loaned me out to the Singapore office.... hey, who am I to complain... free lodging, additional pay... tank tops....

Here's to better beer. :-)

The New, Improved ( hopefully ) bluebottle...

So, is nothing sacred ? This is the positive, all new, improved, no holds barred, always positive, Kane. Like it ? Good.... Don't like ? Too Bad...